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Name: Christie
Birthday: 10/21/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: I love learning so I have a lot of interests including politics, fitness, history, philosophy, outdoors stuff, writing, social justice issues, aubrey/maturin novels, writing bad poetry, PBS, reading autobiography,etc.
Expertise: Making grilled cheese, being paranoid, Autobiography (I have read at least 60 works and a lot of criticism so I think I may qualify as some vague expert), picking out produce, counting calories
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  supachristie
Member Since:
2/20/2005
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| I think not. Some asshole junkie/teenage delinquint/crackhead broke
into my car last night. I had The Club on my car, it was parked in a
well lit area, and nothing of value was in it. So why the would someone
break into my car? I can only think of one reason: because I live in
Baltimore. Man, sometimes I really freakin' hate this place. Why
doesn't John Waters make a movie about this crap? Baltimore is not all
about big hair, big drag queens, and eating dog poop. There are so many
things that are messed up about it that when someone from out of town
says "You know? Baltimore's not so bad, it just needs a little
revitalisation" that I don't even know where to begin.
The people
that broke into my car were plain old idiots, folks. I drive a 2000
Hyundai Sonata that has body damage and a tape deck. It's a mess. The
only thing they made off with was my gym bag (I think they took that to
hold the rest of their loot) and two broken portable cd players. They
ignored the envelope labeled "Gas $" with $32 in it that was in the
glove box and the $200+ tennis racket I had in the trunk. And yes, they
did look in the glove box and trunk. They also looked through the 5 cds
I had in the consoul (Gilbert and Sullivan, Rent, the Jay and Silent
Bob Soundtrack, Sade, and Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Audiobook) and didn't even take those. I can't believe they broke two
windows (yes the idoits broke two--the drivers and the back passenger's
side) to get maybe $10 worth of stuff. It's all taken care of, the
glass is replaced, my car is field stripped and parked in a different
area, but I can't help but feel a little "why me?" about this. What did
I do wrong? I feel so violated and stupid and angry. If some one had
asked me for that stuff I would have gladly given it away, but they had
to destroy my property and my day instead? I can't help but feel that
the events of the past few months are the result of some sort of karmic
retribution. What did I do to start this cycle of shit? What can I do
to undo it? Is the universe trying to tell me something? I mean nothing
seems to be going right right now. Not where I live (well where I park
at least), not where I work, and not my love life (ehhh not to
concerned about that one. Well other than putting a "thing" that has
been on it's last legs since August down for good). I know my plight is
far better than the people who lost their homes in California or the
millions of people stricken with poverty and disease everyday, but when
can a girl catch a break? This whole thing sucks now. Ugggggh.
It's pretty sad because I was kind of looking forward to facing the day today. Before I saw my car that is. I even thought to myself "Well these past 6 Monday's have been horrible, so this one's got to be good, right?" Then I packed my lunch, brushed my teeth, and walked out the door.
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| but I love looking at this website: http://www.thevalleyofthedolls.com/ I love looking at this website so much that I kinda want a doll. Then I remember that I don't like tchockies and that I am neither twelve nor japanese. (Two entries in one day! Wowzers...I am setting the bar high for myself)
OMG OMG OMG I was just about to finish this note when a mouse ran across my living room floor!!!! I freaked and picked the cat up off the couch where she was sleeping and plopped her down near where the mouse ran behind a bookcase. She looked so miffed! Now she is lying on her double wide scratcher trying to fall back asleep. I can't believe she is so lazy now. I mean I know she doesn't need to kill to eat and that that has probably dulled her killer senses, but come on! She could at least go and try to kill the mouse for le sport. Le sigh.
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but I am really hating life right now.
Scary
mechanic phone stalks me and sends scary emails about my car. Since I
can't afford the repairs right now, I have to rely on luck and prayers
everytime I get behind the wheel. I am completely terrified each time I
have to drive somewhere.
Student loan company calls telling me that
I owe them interest on my loan even though I am in deferment because I
am in grad school and teaching at an innercity school. I offer to write
them a check and then tell them it will be just as good as if I wrote
them a check for the entire amount. If I can't afford to pay for car
repairs I surely can't afford to pay for student loan interest. :(
Violent student has become more violent and more foul. She urinates on the floor---every day.
Teachers are still working without a contract and without our raises and step increases.
The
classes that I am taking are complete wastes of the gas it takes to get
there and worse they are complete wastes of time. I can't believe that
people who teach about teaching are such bad teachers. Plus these
classes leave me with practically no down time.
Dad has to get his
knees replaced. This gives me nightmares because I saw bodies with
joint replacements at the Body Worlds exhibit. It also terrifies me
because I am terrified that my dad could die. I seriously don't know
what I'd do because the few times I have allowed myself to think about
the fact that he may die I have began sobbing with such force that my
throat and stomach begin to hurt.
And it's not such a big thing,
but I lost the third disc to my unabridged Hobbit audiobook collection.
It's a major bummer because the city library system doesn't have the
version I have.
While I used to be sure that things will get
better, they have been bad for so long that I am not sure any more.
What's next? Open oozing sores a la Job? Complete and utter breakdown? | | |
| 1. Car trouble. I had to get an axel replaced this week. Then I also
find out that the power steer hose is leaking and the transmission
needs to be flushed. Well I guess it's not too bad because it hasn't
had much maintainence beyond oil changes and some other minor work in
almost 70,000 miles. Still auto problems are the most annoying problems
of all.
2. Kid trouble. I have got a student who hits and pulls hair. More
specifically she hits me and pulls my hair (well mine and some others).
It's really hard for me to get up every morning and come to work
knowing that I'm basically walking into a fight cage. And I can't fight
back.
3. I can't graduate this spring because the class I need isn't being
offered until summer. Oh well. It's a bummer but at least I'll get to
take winter semester off.
4. This are disorganized at work. I feel like I am constantly setting
some of my coworkers straight. Also we've got some gossips in my
building and I have to deal with that. Grrrrrrr.
Things have been pretty shitty lately. Car trouble + violent students =
A Christie who just wants to hide under the covers. But actually shitty
is probably too strong. Having a bad week has made me appreciate my off
time even more. I am so looking forward to this weekend even though
usually I wouldn't. I am broke. And not just "oops I guess I'll have to
get the store brand of yogurt this week" broke. I am 'can't move my car
at all because I can't afford to put any gas in it at all and still
have another week to get through before I get paid." Normally I
wouldn't be stoked about this weekend, but I am because 1) I get to
sleep 2) I can walk to free stuff like museums 3) It's finally fall.
I feel like my first two reasons for enjoying this weekend are self explanitory so I will elaborate on the last one.
I LOVE FALL. As much as I dislike summer, I love fall. I love the
colors and the chill in the air. I love soups and mushrooms and baked
apples. I love the hiking and camping in fall. I love the crunch of
leaves under your shoes and the smell of woodfire in the air. I love
the harvest festivals and when this year's beaujoulais is released. I
love Thanksgiving and most of all Halloween. These two holidays have no
gift buying pressure and are just plain old fun. Thanksgiving is all
about the food and family and football (or parades if you are anything
like me). Halloween is all about kids in costumes and creepy haunted
houses and candy. They are the best. I always feel my most optimistic
in the fall. I love the fresh start of the school year and the cozy
feeling my apartment has on the dark nights. I feel like I can finally
breathe again. Things just feel more well ordered. I love the tweeds
and wools and velvets of fall fashions. The hot apple cider and chai
tea. The warm glow of a bon fire and the cheers of a high school
football team. | | |
| So now that I have told you about the horrors that are Celine Dion and
REO Speedwagon, I am sure you are wondering about the love/break-up
songs I actually enjoy listening to. Because I am on your mind all the
time, aren't I?
1. Glad to See You Go by, pretty much the best band ever, The Ramones.
I love how twisted this song is. Nothing makes me feel better than to
yell along with Joey. It is the ultimate revenge song. The Ramones are
pretty much my idea about what good rock music is supposed to sound
like; They play loud, fast, with an amateurish freshness, and most of
their songs really only have 3 cords. I love the fact that this song
contains this verse:
Now I know the score
I don't need you anymore
Don't want you cause you're a bore
I need somebody good
I need a miracle
Should I take a chance on her?
One bullet in the cylinder
Gonna smile, I'm gonna laugh
They're gonna want my autograph
And in a moment of passion
get the glory like Charles Manson
C'mon! It's a revenge song with a reference to Charles Manson. So cool. Dee Dee is so frickin' cool man.
2. Train in Vain by, well they are almost as good as The Ramones, The
Clash. First released as an accidental "hidden" track on London
Calling, this song pretty much rocks my socks. While I don't appreciate
all those Hot Topic teens wandering around in their faux punk looks, I
can kind of understand the impulse to "go punk" when I listen to listen
album. Anyways I love this song. It's way more "pop" than the other
stuff on the album, but it shows that the Clash have range damn it. Plus
take a look at these lyrics:
Say you stand by your man
Tell me something I don't understand
You said you love me and thats a fact
Then you left me, said you felt trapped
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All the times
When we were close
Ill remember these things the most
I see all my dreams come tumbling down
I wont be happy without you around
It's so simple but it also rings very true for the left party. It
doesn't beg the other person to come back and it has dignity. I like
this song because it just lays it out there.
3. Heart of Glass by Blondie. Sure it's disco. Sure it's cliche for its
beat, but still I really like the lyrics. She basically says "Once I
was in love and I thought it was real, but I was wrong." This is pretty
much the exact feeling that I get when I am at the end of a
relationship. It's like ok, well I thought this was love, but I guess
it wasn't. Here's my favorite part:
Once I had a love and it was divine
Soon found out I was losing my mind
It seemed like the real thing but I was so blind
Mucho mistrust, love's gone behind
4. Sick of You by The Stooges. I think I like the break up songs more
than love songs really as the last four have been break up songs. I love Iggy Pop and I love The Stooges. If you haven't ever heard them (what is wrong with you?) give them a try. This song is so funny. Take a gander at these lyrics:
Goodbye Betsy I'm goin' away
I'm sick of you and there ain't no way
Don't want to know, don't want to see
Don't you ever bother me
Sick of hanging around your pad
Sick of your Mom and sick of your Dad
Yeah and Betsy,
It's sad but true,
Now I'm even sick of you.
5. Simply Beautiful by Al Green. Ok ok. I know Al Green is just about
the cheesiest "love song" guy on the planet. This song is pretty
beautiful and very very sexy. This song isn't really about the lyrics,
but about Green's delivery so I won't post them here.
6. I Want You Around by The Ramones. It's simple, but really nicely
put. I mean can you really say anything more about how you feel when
you really like "like" someone?
7. In Between Days by The Cure. The Head on the Door is one of my
desert island albums and I love the lead track. This song perfectly
describes those "in between days" when you still feel sort of heart
broken and sort of ok about things. The lyrics are open to
interpretation because they aren't explicitly about love, but I like to
think that Robert Smith is saying "just leave because I might hurt for
a while, but eventually I'll be ok." The beat, the lyrics, Robert
Smith's voice---it all comes together beautifully.
8. Unhappy Birthday by The Smiths. I love The Smiths but I pretty much
hate Morrissey's solo stuff. Except Suedehead because it sounds like
The Smiths. Johnny Marr is my favorite band member, but I do love
Morrissey's lyrics. I would marry Johnny Marr I think. This song is so
funny and totally represents how I feel on a lot of my exes' birthdays.
Here is the chorus:
I've come to wish you an unhappy birthday
I've come to wish you an unhappy birthday
'Cause you're evil
And you lie
And if you should die
I may feel slightly sad
(But I won't cry)
9. Love Comes in Spurts by Richard Hell and the Voidoids. Don't know
who Richard Hell is? Well he was one of the founding members of
Television, a band that played CBGB in the heyday. It is rumored that
he pioneered the "punk rock look" and that he was the one who
influenced The Sex Pistols to spike their hair, slash their clothes,
and generally tore up. I like this band a lot. They pretty much rock. I
love the lyrics to this song. Again simple, but it feels very very true.
Cuz love comes in spurts
In dangerous flirts
And murders your heart
They didn't tell you that part
10. There Is No Reason by Velvet Underground. Sometimes I don't really
"get" Velvet Underground, but I do get this song and I love it. Here
are some lyrics:
There is no reason
to cause me such pain
Turn out the sunlight
turn on my rain
All of my hopes and dream
you took away everything and -
There is no reason
there is no reason
To treat me this way
11.
Funny Little Frog by Belle & Sebastian. I dig Belle &
Sebastian. This song is just good pop love song stuff. The lyrics are
pretty smart too. Happy lovey music.
You're my picture on the wall
You're my vision in the hall
You're the one I'm talking to
When I get in from my work
You are my girl, and you don?t even know it
I am livin out the life of a poet
I am the jester in the ancient court
You're the funny little frog in my throat | | |
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